Rage was getting the better of me. So i've started avoidance. Everytime my mind wants to hurt someone in anger, i leave- home, college, cafe. THe problem is that it makes me look and act like a zombie. Mum's beginning to notice. She sees my eyes going dead mid-sentence. Moodswings are what it looks like. In truth, its anaesthesia. When the anger is suppressed, so is every other emotion. Leaving me a little more hollow. I feel nothing and that's just fine. For now.